Not Again…Failing as a Parent

Grrrr and a whole jar full of swear words! I did it again. I slept through the 6 alarms on my phone, the big alarm clock in the bedroom, and both the kiddos’ alarms. My daughter opened my bedroom door at 7:45 (the time we should be walking out the door) and told me the time. I frantically jumped out of bed and went to wake up my son. I was telling both of them “don’t panick, but hurry and get ready”, while trying to hide the fact that I was panicking.

We made it to school just before the second bell rang. There were about 8 other cars in front of us in the drop off lane outside the office. I watched my kiddos get through the front door, but I don’t know if they made through the next doors without having to get a tardy pass.

I feel like I am totally failing as a parent this school year. I remember, I used to wake up around 5:30 each day, despite how late I would go to bed. Now, it doesn’t seem to matter how much sleep I get; I struggle to wake up. I know part of it has to do with my medication that I talked about here, and hopefully I can get that straightened out when I see the physician on Friday.

It is just so frustrating. I feel like I am letting my kids down, jeopardizing their academic success, and causing them unnecessary stress. I’m sorry kiddos; Mommy will get it together soon, I hope.


Wishing you all a stress-free day.

With love,

J♡

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20 thoughts on “Not Again…Failing as a Parent

  1. My darling daughter, you are NOT failing; you are a great mom! Those kids love you with all their hearts. S@#! $* happens. You will get it worked out and things WILL get better. There are hills and valleys. ..you’re in a valley right now. Just wait when you get to the top of the hill! What a great view that will be! Xoxo, the Momma

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  2. I’m not a parent, so I can’t really put myself in your shoes. But please don’t beat yourself up over something like this. I work with kids every day whose parents genuinely couldn’t care less about their kids’ well-being. The fact that you care enough to panic is amazing in and of itself.

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  3. Thank you for this. I just feel so bad when stuff like this happens…they are both very emotional and stress easily just like me. I don’t want to add to that. It’s heartbreaking to know that there are parents that don’t care. It’s good that they have someone like you working with them. Thanks again.

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  4. After reading a few of your posts, the obvious answer is you re a great parent!!! You have to let yourself off the hook. This is the disease talking, making you feel guilty. You are no longer that gal who woke up at 5:30AM. (Fibro took her away.) You are the gal who makes sure her kids are healthy, happy, warm, and sometimes late for school. That is more than enough! (Plus I agree with your mom, hills, and valleys!) ~Kim

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